Have you ever felt so lonely, messy and lost, and didn’t know how to get yourself out?

After I learned of my husband’s infidelity, lost two children in the adoption process and went through a grueling divorce, I found myself without a license, without a house, without a job and without hope.

I was mad at God. I felt He’d abandoned me, leaving me to figure it out all by myself. I thought that’s where my story began, but it turned out the mess of my thirties had much deeper roots that needed to be healed.

Irreverent: A Memoir of Reckless Hope, Unexpected Love and Finding My Voice is my story of growing up in a religious cult, healing after betrayal, and breaking off generational curses from the past.

It’s about recovering from eating disorders, alcohol, porn and finding grace, hope and love in the most unexpected places.